April 16, 2013

Week 5: Going Blind Because I'm Fat (ok, not really - too soon?)

Current Weight:  233.4
+/-  this week:  -2.6
+/- this round:   +1
+/- total:    -33.6
Short Term Goal:  222.4

Avg weekly loss needed to reach 189 lbs by age 33 (31 weeks): 1.4 lbs/wk

Well, things have been kind of crazy. Sorry for the lack of update last week, but the last week has been a little crazy. First off, I work at a Tax & Accounting office, so last week was basically the craziest week of the year for us. It was fun, but a tad stressful at times.

I also went to the eye doctor last Monday. In my last update, I mentioned that I'd been having some vision problems like spotty vision and shadows around the edge of my vision. It started about 3-4 weeks ago when I was sick and had this immense pressure in my head and was getting headaches a couple of times a day. Some people suggested that I had a sinus infection, but I don't know what it really was, it didn't feel like a sinus infection and it went away eventually - but the vision problems didn't. I kept waiting for them to go, and they continued. Now it is at the point where when I stand up from my bed at night or walk from a dark room into a light room my vision is so spotty that I'm effectively blinded for 15-20 seconds. I posted something on Facebook and everyone freaked out and told me to go see someone. So, I did.

I made an appointment with my eye doctor last Monday, they got me in same day, which was great. They did an eye exam and my vision is still very good, I may need glasses at work since I sit in front of a computer so many hours a day, but it's not a big deal. But then he looks in my eyes and I hear him say "edema" and I know that means swelling. So he finishes looking and then says he wants them to take some photos of my eyes and then we will talk about what's going on. He said, you may need some correction at work but that's not really your problem.

He showed me the photos and told me that my optic nerves are swollen. There are a few different reasons this could be happening (tumor, viral meningitis etc), but he thinks the most likely culprit is psuedotumor cerebri, or idiopathic intercranial hypertension. Translation: too much fluid around the brain. It is linked to PCOS and hypothyroidism, and though it occurs in 1 in every 100,000 people, obese women under age 44 are 20x more likely to get it. He basically said that if that's what it is, I will have to work with him and a neurologist, start some medication that reduces the amount of spinal fluid I produce, and lose weight immediately. Since it was caught pretty early, if we treat it right away it is most likely there will not be permanent eye damage. In order to diagnose it, they need to do an MRI and a spinal tap.

Cue the big cry again on the way home from that appointment. I feel like we have had our share of health issues this year, and it feels overwhelming to have this going on. I admit there is a little bit of "Why me" going on, and a little bit of just being super frustrated that my body keeps failing me.  It was a relief in that I no longer feel like I am being a whiner or overreacting to my eye issues and headaches (which are only every 3 days or so now), but this seems like a big deal and it's just MORE medication, more doctors appointments, more tests. He recommended a book called The Schwarzbein Principle, which my Mom has been trying to get me to read for a few months, and ironically had just given me her copy of that very morning. He started talking about personal trainers and gyms, and I just can't. First, when in the world would I do that? And second, with what money? So I need to figure out a workout plan for at home, and I'm working on that right now.

My main goals diet wise right now are to stick to my points, and to cut out a lot of the processed foods I usually eat. I am not committing to NO processed foods because I feel like that's an unrealistic goal for me at this time, one step at a time. I don't want to bite off more than I can chew. Ha. I have cut back my diet soda consumption by a crazy amount - I was up to drinking probably 2-5 cans a day. I have only had 3 cans since last Wednesday. I am drinking a lot more water and drinking tea. I have been eating a lot more fruit. I went out to dinner last night and ordered a chicken burger without the bun and ate that and some fries.

AND, it looks like it's paying off so far. I am still + lbs for this round, but I lost 2.6 pounds this week. I didn't go over my points, in fact, I didn't use all of my weekly points. I am really going to try not to count on those except if I have something special going on and to use them for that. There is a candy basket on my desk at work and I have been very good about not eating much of it. I can make a mini Baby Ruth last four bites. I didn't have alcohol on our last date night because I didn't want to use up the points. I feel like I'm doing really well and if I can start getting exercise in at least 4-5 days a week I might actually have a chance of reaching that birthday goal up there.

 I had my MRI yesterday morning and found it completely bizarre. Despite a friend's warning that the machine would be very tight (it was), I found it weirdly relaxing and actually fell asleep for a moment in the middle of it. It's super loud, but somehow rhythmic. I am hoping to hear from my eye doctor today about the results of the MRI and vision field testing I had done Saturday, and find out what the next step is. I am not looking forward at all to the spinal tap (to test my spinal fluid and measure the pressure in my head). It sounds horrible. This is just one thing going on in my life right now, and I have other things I'd like to share, but I just haven't had time to sit down and write lately. Hopefully soon. I am a little bit focused on this right now because I feel anxious to get a firm diagnosis and start trying to make it better. In the meantime, I'm going to go eat a piece of dark chocolate.

Starting Weight 1 (Feb 2009):  267 lbs
Starting Weight 2 (Dec 2011):  249.8 lbs
Starting Weight 3 (Feb 2013):  232.4 lbs
Starting BMI:  41.8

Weight Lost:  33.6 lbs
Goal Weight: 160 lbs
Goal BMI:  25.1

Old Goal 1: 237.8 (5%) - Met 1/24/12
Old Goal 2: 225.8 (10%) - Met 4/10/12
Old Goal 3:  217 (50 pounds down) - Met 8/7/12
Old Goal 4: 213.5 (50% of final goal) - Met 9/25/12

Short Term Goal 1:  222.4 (10 pounds down this round)
Short Term Goal 2: 217 (50 pounds down [again...])
Short Term Goal 3:  207 (60 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 4: 199.9 (under 200 for the first time in 7+ years)
Short Term Goal 5: 192 (75 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 6: 189 (25% &  no longer "obese")

Long Term Goal: 160 lbs
Total to Lose:  107 lbs
To Go: 73.4 lbs


Melissa said...

Good luck with everything! It sounds like you have a good attitude about it and I'm sure that helps. Try doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred. Kicks your butt but it's only 20ish minutes a day and it really helps drop the pounds.

Rachael1013 said...

I actually have that video! It is hardcore, but I like it because it is intense and quick.

Liz Sawyer said...

I could give lots of "you shoulds" suggestions but instead I simply want to tell you that YOU CAN DO THIS and YOU ARE LOVED. There will be tough days where you crave something, but the longer you stick with the simple strategies you believe in for your goals the less you'll crave the bad stuff. Hugs my friend...