My life is a big ball of confusion and emotion. Awesome things have been happening, I started my reading for my Birth Boot Camp training and am super excited about it. The new website is awesome and growing and I can't wait for the stuff I am planning next to grow it. But at the same time this week has been extremely difficult, especially the last 3 or 4 days. I am still looking for a job and bot finding much, and I feel like the next stage of my life can't truly begin until I find one. I am super emotional, frustrated with the kids, and really wanting to be alone more than anything else. And I can't be. It is frustrating that I am frustrated. I feel annoyed and guilty and bad-mothery. I am turning into one of those Facebookers I hate who post depressing repetitive statuses. I feel better and I feel worse. I have good friends and I can't imagine what I would do without them. I am a Debbie Downer. I have no balance. I have to give myself time but I have to figure out how to do that and not be a crappy mom. I don't know what I am doing anymore.