May 22, 2012

Week 24: Fat.

Current Weight:  226.6
+/-  this week:  +3.6
+/- this round:   -23.2
+/- total:    -41.4
Current Short Term Goal:  217 (50 pounds lighter)

Last week I didn't go to weigh in and I wrote about how I needed to get back on track.  Well, guess what I didn't do?

I went this week because I really DO need to get back on track.  And the number was not awesome.  It's possible part of it is because of wearing heavier clothes etc, but really?  It's just because I have not held myself accountable at all for the last two weeks.  I hadn't tracked any points for 8 days before today, which is something I haven't done since December - even when I have gone over by a lot, I've still tracked.

I'm not happy.  I just feel fat.  I know everyone slips, but I am frustrated at myself for letting it go and for going back on the progress I had made.  Because I can gain 3 pounds in two weeks, but it will likely take me twice as long to get rid of it again. 

My eating is highly connected to my emotions, and I've been stressed.  It makes it a lot harder for me to stay on track, because I turn to food for comfort even though I know it's not REALLY going to mae me feel better.  But I've been stressed before and I just have to work harder at this. 

I also haven't been doing any activity, so this week I'm back to my goal of some kind of walking at least every day, even if it's just going to the mall for an hour. 

I don't really feel like writing anything else right now.

Starting Weight 1 (Feb 2009):  267 lbs
Starting Weight 2 (Dec 2011):  249.8 lbs
Starting BMI:  41.8

Weight Lost:  41.4 lbs
Goal Weight: 160 lbs
Goal BMI:  25.1

Short Term Goal 1: 237.8 (5%) - Met 1/24/12
Short Term Goal 2: 225.8 (10%) - Met 4/10/12
Short Term Goal 3:  217 (50 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 4: 213.5 (50% of final goal)
Short Term Goal 5:  207 (60 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 6: 199.9 (under 200 for the first time in 7+ years)
Short Term Goal 7: 192 (75 pounds down)
Short Term Goal 8: 189.8 (25% & no longer "obese")

Long Term Goal: 160 lbs
Total to Lose:  107 lbs
To Go: 67.6 lbs

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