January 26, 2010

As You Wish...

I know, I know, it was TOTALLY time for more belly shots. So, here they are. Let's talk about them and what is scaring me a tiny bit.

Here is a shot from a few weeks ago, when I was 23 weeks with Danny. Bonus, a cute Sam in the picture!

23 Weeks w/Danny

Here is the most recent belly picture. This is from last Saturday, the day I turned 25 weeks. I am wearing a different shirt, but you may notice that I am giant. I am not doing anything to make myself look bigger as far as I know, just standing there.

25 Weeks w/Danny

Now, do you understand why sometimes I am surprised when I catch my reflection in shop windows? Let's talk about why it's strange to me. Here are some photos for comparison...

Me with Sam at 28 Weeks, AKA 3 weeks beyond what I am right now with Danny:

28 Weeks w/Sam

Here is a picture of me with Sam at 31 Weeks...

31 Weeks w/Sam

Sam at 36 weeks...

36 Weeks w/Sam

And at 38.5 weeks, 1.5 weeks before I had him. Close to the biggest I got with him.

38.5 Weeks w/Sam

Do you see? Let's recap for a second.

Pregnancy Comparison

What the WHAT? How much bigger am I going to get? I already feel like my stomach is trying to become independent of my body sometimes. AND I STILL HAVE 15 WEEKS LEFT. Full size pics and the entire set of Baby #2 Ultrasound and Belly Shots are on Flickr here. This should be fun...
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Fortnight of Flu

Hi. Remember me? I used to blog here.

Every time I think I'm getting back into my rhythm with posting, something happens, and I disappear. This time? A fortnight of sickness in our house. It all started with Sam - a fever, sometimes up to 105, that lasted four days. Followed by several days of coughing and runny nose. Followed by my reward for taking care of him - getting sick myself! Last week I used 2 whole double rolls of toilet paper blowing my nose. In 5 days. It's taken four more, but I'm about 3/4 of the way through another. Yuck! So, by the time Sam's gone to bed I've just been totally exhausted. Plus he missed a whole week of preschool when he was sick, so no computer time for me.

But, things are looking up now! Sam is recovered and back at school. I am blowing my nose less and less every day. The house is finally getting cleaner! Hopefully this means I'm back. For real this time. At least until I have a newborn baby in a couple of months.

Speaking of which, things are great. I'm 25 weeks now and I feel giant already, when I compare pictures from last time I'm showing SO much more than I was at 25 weeks with Sam. I feel Danny moving and kicking all the time now. He's still sitting low, and I think he's still feet down for now. I am feeling fairly normal, although I get tired easily and exercise is still hard because I get exhausted fast and my body just doesn't feel normal. By the time I've walked around with Sam for an hour or two, I feel like my belly is trying to pull itself off my body. So, there's that.

Health wise things are great! My blood sugars have remained normal so far. It's about time that my midwife wrote paperwork for my glucose tolerance test, but I'm not sure I need to do it if I'm taking my blood sugars? I'm going to call the endocrinologist and ask, because if it's not necessary I really don't want to pay for it. I have not gained any weight so far. I lost about 12 pounds early on and have hovered within the same 4 pound range for the rest of the time. This is really great. I am overweight to start, so not gaining is not a concern to my doctors. It's nice for me personally because I worked really hard to lose the 30 pounds I lost before becoming pregnant, and I was afraid of gaining it back. It would have been all right, of course, for the baby. But it would have been a bummer at the same time. So, we'll see how the rest of the pregnancy goes!

So, I'm back! I hope. I have missed this place.
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January 14, 2010

Who Am I To Talk Lurkers?!

It's kind of funny that I'm posting this today since for the last week I've been a major lurker on all the blogs I read, as well as on my own!

Well, that's what you get when you have a kid with a 102-105 temp for four days, then a major cough for 3+. And he doesn't eat during that time. Then on the day he finally gets a bunch of his energy back? You feel like crap and the glands in your neck are so swollen that they hurt when you're not even touching them. WOO! Obviously, it's been a fun week here. Also, let's not talk about the disaster area that is my house with a super clingy kid not going to school.

Aaaaaanyway... today is Delurking Day.
Hosted by Greeblemonkey and Rude Cactus, it's a very special day for all us bloggers to flash each other come out of the silence and introduce ourselves!
I know you guys are out there, and I know a few of you, but there are WAY more subscribers than I know personally, and I want you to say Hi! Leave a comment... where are you from? What do you like to do? I'll come visit your blog if you do!
That's all I can manage for now... I am totally beat and my husband is in the kitchen making me some bacon.
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January 6, 2010

Friday Fragments

Friday Fragments are bits and pieces of your week that are usually brief; too short for a stand-alone post, but too good to discard. Collect humorous observations, "Heard" items, and other small gems and put them together in a Friday Fragments post.

Friday Fragments are the brainchild of Mrs.4444 and you can find more at Half Past Kissin' Time.



~ Are you aware of Sarah Palin's Alaska? It's some ridiculous reality show that follows her around in Alaska with her family and blah blah blah. No, I'm not watching it because I'd rather stick a fork in my eye. But then I heard that Kate Gosselin and her kids went to Alaska to go camping with Sarah Palin. You guys. WHY? Why is that happening? Do you know what that is? Some tier of hell. HELL.

~ We've taken a bit of a hit at the start of the new year. I'm sure I could write a whole post about it, but right now I'll just say that it's only January 5 and Justin's car is on it's last legs (they told us it's not worth it to fix) and our electric bill for Nov/Dec was over $900. Happy New Year to us...

~ Anyone else watching Top Chef All Stars? I didn't write a recap this week, but my favorite moments? Tom's awesome Quickfire Challenge - can you even imagine how much time we'd all save if we could make dinner every night in 8 minutes 37 seconds? Awesome! Angelo talking about his pet turtle that he takes on walks on a little leash? Hilarious. But I was really sad that Casey got sent home. I really can't believe Jamie is still there, I'm sick of her. And next week's preview did not show her improving.

~ I'm writing this on Thursday because tomorrow morning at 8 something, Sam, Danny and I will be on a plane headed for the east coast! I am a bit nervous about flying by myself with two kids, but I think it will work out. Sam and Danny are both sick with coughs, but I'm hoping that it won't make big problems for their ears. If might actually be helpful to me if Sam has less energy than normal tomorrow. I am also really happy to have Sam's new Leapster Explorer because I think it's going to be awesome for the plane. We're staying at my Dad's in Lanham, MD on Fri and Sat, then we'll head up to New Jersey to see my stepmom and little sister and other family.

~ I've been listening to audiobooks again lately while I drive around in the car doing my business. I'm in the middle of "Room" by Emma Donoghue right now and... wow. This book is so original, told from the perspective of a 5 year old. It's simultaneously exciting, mundane, extraordinary, heartwrenching... it may be a new favorite.

~ Wish I could think of more to say, but I am brain dead. I've been a little stressed this week trying to pack super light yet not forget anything and with 2 sick kids. I am going to head off to bed. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

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The 2nd Time Around

I spent part of my weekend transferring all my posts from the BabyCrowd Journal blog I used while I was pregnant with Sam to this blog's archives. Now they're all here and all of my blog writing I've done is all in one place.

It was interesting looking back at my first pregnancy and how different it was. It's just SO much different going through it the second time, already knowing a lot of what's to come and not being nervous about having a newborn around.

The closest posts to where I am right now in this pregnancy were from January 11, so I was about 24 weeks along. Right now I'm 22 weeks along in this pregnancy. I was just starting to feel Sam moving, which actually lines up - I've just started to feel Danny moving consistently in the last 4 or 5 days, and now I feel him pretty much every day, but still not too strongly. I had been feeling sick with some kind of flu and missed a day or so of work. Here's part of what I wrote:

The other day when I was talking to Brooke, she sort of reminded me, hey, you are really pregnant. I hate the fact that last week when I started to feel so sick, I didn't even feel like I could take a sick day to take care of myself when I'm six months pregnant. I think that's ridiculous. I think I've been pushing myself too much, and I'm going to pay more attention to what I'm doing now. I need to make sure I'm not working too much and that I'm taking regular breaks and eating real meals throughout the day. I don't feel incapacitated by being pregnant, but I am definitely starting to realize now that I don't have the same capacity that maybe I did before, I do get tired more easily and need to consider it. I feel like nobody else considers it either. I feel like if I were thinner and looked 'more pregnant', that people would treat me differently. As it is, I don't think people even think about it. On top of the fact that I don't feel like anyone at work even knows what I'm doing or appreciates it. I know Laurie does, but no one else even seems to understand how busy I am and how overloaded that I am right now. I don't feel like I fit in that well, I am not part of the regular staff because I am in sort of a position of authority to them, and the managers don't consider me to be on their level. It's like I'm drifting in the middle by myself and no one notices me unless I'm NOT doing the thing they want me to do. Anyway, only 57 more days left (not that I'm counting), and I'm working on hiring the people to take my job over so I can start training them and unloading some stuff.

Lastly, I'm starting to think a lot about what I need to do and the things I want to do around the house. I know there are four months left, but I feel like I want to start doing things now. I'm starting to make a plan for what stuff I want to pack up and send to the storage unit until we get a house. There's a lot of 'stuff' around here that I don't want to get rid of, but that it woud probably be good to have out of the way for now. I'll keep you all updated on what I do around the house. I think it's almost time for a visit to the container store soon to get a nother shelf for the baby 'stuff' that's already starting to be here.


This is a great example of how different this time is. Though I have the stress of trying to make sure Sam is taken care of and entertained, I forget how hard some of the work stuff was last time. I feel lucky that I'm home with Sam and not trying to juggle him, a job AND being pregnant. We also don't have much ready here for the baby. We haven't gotten most of the hand me downs from people, which includes the car seats and crib. We have a few small piles of clothes, but that's about it. We're VERY slowly trying to get a little more organized, but the living room needs to be cleaned out and the extra bed needs to be taken to the garage before the guest room really becomes Danny's room. We still don't have a middle name picked out, and don't know if we'll use cloth diapers this time (depends on whether the diaper service delivers here).

I'm trying to really enjoy this pregnancy because I know it's going to be my last. I know that if someday Justin and I decide that our family is short a member, we'll look into adoption. It's so strange to want to savor every moment of this and at the same time be so anxious to meet the baby.

I do have fears about when he arrives, we were in such an ideal situation last time and this time I'm goin to have to do things on my own a lot sooner. Justin won't be able to take much time off work because we can't afford time off without pay, and that means that I'll be left to cope with 2 kids before I will probably feel totally ready. I know I can do it, but I also know it's going to be a challenge at first.

In any case, it's kind of fun to look back and compare what I was doing then. It's really nice that it's so easy to match up since we are on almost the same schedule as last time with the due dates only a week apart. I'll end with this...

On the BabyCrowd site the provide you with monthly questionaires to answer about how things are going with the baby. Here's my current answers to the questions I answered in January 2006.

Buying maternity clothes was:
Way better than I thought! I had a gift card to Motherhood Maternity for $50 and managed to squeeze three whole shirts out of it, which was a bargain because maternity clothes are expensive. I had fun trying things on and choosing the ones I wanted!

The biggest change in my body has been:
The shape of my stomach. I have definitely started to REALLY show earlier this time, and even though the baby is lower, my belly is up high because all my guts have been displaced by my uterus.

My favorite change in my body has been:
This is a hard one, I really like the round belly because I actually look pregnant now!

What I never thought would change was:
The sickness! Oh my gosh, it was definitely worse this time, and I'm SO glad it's (mostly) passed.

At this month's prenatal visit I learned that:
Hm, this is a hard one too. I learned that if I qualify for Pregnancy Medical through DSHS, the whole birth will be paid for. I also learned that I have not gained any weight this pregnancy, which is good.

My hopes:
That the birth will go well and I'll be able to handle a natural birth. I am very excited, but I am also a bit scared because I know it's pain. I am pretty confident, but there's always a little fear.

My fears:
My biggest fear this pregnancy is that my blood sugar levels will start to be too high or I will develop gestational diabetes and not be able to deliver at the birth center. Luckily so far everything is awesome and I'm trying to think positive that it will stay that way.
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January 5, 2010

What I Think

Here are a few of my favorite opinion pieces over the years - I hope you enjoy and feel free to leave comments, whether you agree or not!

How We See Birth: Changing Our Perceptions - March 2010 - My thoughts on the way we view and treat birth in our culture and why it's not quite right.

Torture Porn: That's My Line and I'm Stickin' To It - February 2010 - Do you watch movies like Saw and Tourista? Here's why I won't.

Have a Little Faith - December 2009 - My opinion on the nasty backlash that happened online after the tragic drowning death of a 2 year old boy.

Birthing is Business?
- May 2009 - Thoughts on birth and the medical system in America after watching Ricki Lake's documentary "The Business of Being Born."

Did Jenny McCarthy Cure Autism? - March 2009 - My take on her claims and the idea that autism is curable at all.

Octuplets? Not an Option! - February 2009 - Where do we draw the line? When does the search for a child become medically irresponsible?

Haiku Friday: Gay Marriage Makes Me Cry
- July 2008 - My reaction to gay marriage being legalized in California.

Movie Monday: The Women (suck) - September 2008 - My review of the movie "The Women," one of the worst movies I have seen in the past 5 years. Here, I explain why.
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Movie Fail

On Friday my Mom and her husband finally got back from their 2 week Christmas vacation excursion to Belize. That's right, tropical beach. I can't wait to look at all of their pictures! She was nice enough to come over on Sunday so Justin and I could go out.

First we were going to see Avatar. But it started about 20 minutes after we were trying to leave the house, and I needed to eat first. So then we decided to go see Sherlock Holmes, which started a bit over an hour later. We went & ate at Applebees and got to the movie theater just as the movie was supposed to be starting. And it was SOLD OUT. What the hell? This is not the first time this has happened in the last year since we moved back to Bellingham, and it's a bummer! I have to get used to the fact that Bellingham has grown enough that movies actually sell out here now! And not just on opening night either...

So, we ended up seeing Did You Hear About the Morgans. See the difference there...? I am not a huge Sarah Jessica Parker fan, but I thought it was not bad. I do always enjoy Hugh Jackman Hugh GRANT (OMG this pregnancy brain is REALLY not impressing me this week...) and I absolutely love Sam Elliot and Mary Steenburgen, so having them in the movie as a couple was awesome.

When we went to the concession stand, I ordered a small popcorn and a medium soda, then asked for a large bottle of water. You know, the big Dasani bottles that they rob you $4.50 to buy? Well, they were OUT OF WATER. So I asked if I could get a cup of water and they tried to offer me one of those little dixie cup things they give out to let you fill up at the water fountain for free. WTF? I said, since you are out of bottled water, can I get a larger cup? And they WOULDN'T GIVE ME ONE. Because "cups are inventory". They did say that I was welcome to walk to the Rite Aid at the other end of the shopping center and buy a bottle to bring in with me.

I was so mad. First off, I have worked in retail and food service. I KNOW there is a way for you to adjust your inventory a-holes. Secondly, it's your fault for running out of inventory of water. They said that the only way for me to get a bigger cup was to pay the full price for a soda. I pointed out that they don't pay $4.50 per cup but they didn't care. They suggested I could talk to a manager, but she was selling the tickets and there was a line and our movie was starting, so I just paid for the other food and left. I just couldn't deal with arguing about it, but that doesn't make it any less ridiculous.

So, the whole experience was less than what I would have hoped for my first movie viewing of 2010. Oh well, I guess it can only go uphill from here!
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January 4, 2010

2009 SNOTW Movie Awards

Last year, I decided to do my own movie awards for 2008. I had forgotten all about it until I was looking through the year and when I found it, I thought, hey! Why not do that again?

In 2008 I somehow managed to see a whopping 70 movies in the theater. In 2009 I was down to 55, but still a good group to pick from! My full list of movies I watched in 2009 is here. Obviously, these won't be the same as the Golden Globes or Oscars since I'm only going to choose from movies I actually saw.

Drama/Action

Best Picture: Invictus
Best Actress: Meryl Streep as Julia Child in Julie & Julia
Best Actor: Leonardo DiCaprio in Revolutionary Road (didn't like the movie that much, SO depressing, but he was so good in it)
Best Supporting Actress: Emily Blunt in Sunshine Cleaning.
Best Supporting Actor: Stanley Tucci in Julie & Julia (absolutely charming)

Comedy/Musical

Best Picture: The Hangover. Seriously? I was laughing so much I was trying not to laugh so I wouldn't miss anything.
Best Actress: Anna Friel in Land of the Lost
Best Actor: Joseph Gordon-Levitt in (500) Days of Summer
Best Supporting Actress: Heather Graham in The Hangover
Best Supporting Actor: Woody Harrelson in Zombieland

The Best of the Rest

Best Kids Movie: Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs. I loved Up too. But this is one of my favorite books of all time, and I loved the adaptation.
Best Action Sequence: I can't say a particular part, but it was totally 2012. Yes, I AM a disaster movie junkie!
Best Plot Twist: Orphan. Seriously. It was so over the top.
Hottest Actress: Kate Winslet. I heart her.
Hottest Actor: Taylor Lautner in Twilight. I'm sorry, it's a little creepy because it's total cradle robbery but oh well.
Creepiest Performance: Michael C Hall in Gamer. SO creepy.
Actor Most Likely to Turn Your Husband Gay: Hugh Jackman in Wolverine. Somehow, he is pretty much only hot when he's Wolverine (or the drover in Australia). How is that?
Actress Most Likely to Turn Your Wife Gay: Kate Winslet in The Reader. Okay, so it is not exactly the sexiest subject matter with the Nazis and all... but Kate Winslet? HAWT!

Oops...


Worst Picture: Crank: High Voltage. Just... barf.
Worst Choice in Greenlighting a Movie: The Ugly Truth. You somehow managed to make Gerard Butler TOTALLY not hot at all. Great job...
Movie With the Most Potential That Didn't Impress Me Enough: Paranormal Activity. All I heard was how scary it was, but I really thought that only a couple of scenes were REALLY scary. Or Extract. I just wanted more.
Most Gratituitous Violence: Crank: High Voltage

Most Unforgettable Moments:
  • Chinese guy jumps out of the trunk in The Hangover
  • Tobey Maguire loses it on his front lawn in Brothers
  • Bill Murray's accidental death in Zombieland
  • Airlifted animals in 2012
  • Dumbledore's death in Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince
Yeah, so that was way harder than making my 2008 list. I don't know if it was the quality of the movies or the number I saw or what. Weird.

What were your favorite movies of 2009?
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January 1, 2010

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